I was so embarrassing today and just want to escape from them.He asked me “ wht’s wrong with ur test?”  at that time i was standing there, flash on my face and say nothing. I really didn’t know how to answer them. Did I study at all? Yes I did. Properly that’s no enough, but It shouldn’t be such bad. I stay with f&s everyday, but they always get the highest mark in the class, how abt me? Disappointed myself.

Perhaps living with them is the worst decision which I made, it make myself more stressful than ever and never take it easy. I care my test result, even just quiz. I can’t fall to sleep before the test. Actually sth I cared more and more chance to get bad result. People always told me “more pressure will make urself study more” but now it become a torment to me. After I got the bad result I was cried, so shame. I really don’t know how to face them ,and even I don’t want to go home any more. After the class when I went home, I feel so depressed when I saw everything in that house, i feel i can't breath and I dnt want to stay there for one more seconds, I dnt know why? Perhaps this week I will stay outside everyday just like homeless person and go home after they go to sleep.

 Now i know why do i like stay in KFC,stay with there people,coz when i stay whith them i feel so free and relax, i can talk everything which i like, and they never talk abt finance and never talk abt one of the lecturer or people related me in the uni,and i can get ride of all the unhappy things which abt studies and people.I am so luck to have these friends,they make my life easy and happy, thanks to the god give me such gift.

 Every time when I feel sad and getting hurt , I will just stay at home alone, don’t eat and no word at all, or just write my blog, but now I even don’t know where shall I go?

 I feel cold ,i hope there is one person could warm my heart and save me,but where is he?